Meditation from January 23, 2012 - The first thing I got was May 6th - June 3rd. I hope that is an indication that we will indeed find her. I could see a little finger going around and around what seemed or looked like the center part of a plastic lid and then a fork. For whatever reason it seemed like a lot of stuff about eating??
The next thing I saw was a clothes pen, like those old fashioned wooden ones, but she was playing with it like she was pretending that it was a doll. Donut, but again it seemed like it was the hole that was important or focused on. I keep trying to get a fix on if she is still alive or not but I never get a clear answer. I want to know where she is. I see a fish face and a frog, lake. I do think that working on a connection between Aliayah and Mary Stalnaker and Mary Friend may connect some dots. I feel that the grandmother may be a clue as to what happened. As I sit here I get a sense of Ralph and a cabin but that might be a memory of something I've heard, not sure? I remember seeing a church and while sitting here with her pictures in my hand I feel or hear a wolf's howl or to be more specific, a wolf's cry. Then I get cat whiskers and a sense of animals like at that zoo or animal park that is near here, where we live. Also I am feeling a sharp pain in my head, outside and on the right side towards the middle.
There is another meditation posted but I didn't date it. It was probably just a few days later. - I could see a long X with a little x in the middle. There was also this image that reminded me of a mirror that a dentist might use to look into your mouth. I heard Gokie Hollow or it was on my mind. There is something else lingering but I can't get it back. Next I could see what looks like batman's head thingy and the tires or wheel of a car. The batman reminded me of an old place that was called Batmans ceramics. I am not sure of the spelling, but the sound is similar. That was a time from my childhood when my mom taught ceramics.I remember hearing a name at the beginning but I can't focus on it.. Eric or Aaron, sounds like that at least. And I could see a big, beautiful eye reflecting from within. Then I could see a toe and what appeared to be a foot which seemed to be on her forehead. An L and a lion. Rick and Jorge or George. Springs or coils like in a mattress. I feel he took her to hurt her and the X is a key to a map, maybe for Weston. Benny or bunny, tyler and a cupcake?? I have no idea what that means.
March 25, 2012 - For what seems like 2 nights in a row, but may be just 1 night, I've been dreaming about Aliayah. In my dream we were searching around a river and then someone said they found her. I didn't believe it at first, or I didn't want to, but when we went under water there she was. You could see part of her as if she had been pushed back into the bank at the edge. They were trying to figure out how to get her out. It seemed like you should just have to dig out the entire section and then carefully remove her. It was all very weird, but then it got stranger. After she was out of the water and as her body warmed up she woke up. Apparently the cold water saved her even after all that time. It was a miracle but she was alive. I was hugging her and I asked if I could take her home with me and they allowed me to be her foster mom, at least for a while. But I had to let her visit her father on the weekend. The DHHR kept a close eye on all of us but Aliayah was happy and safe and adjusting well. She was very quiet, except when she didn't like something that is. The first night I tried to give her mashed potatoes as I thought most kids like that. Oh no.. she absolutely did not, but she said she liked other kinds of potatoes.
The whole time, which seemed to only be a few days in my dream, we were hoping she would reveal what happened. I sort of remember something that I either felt or she said about her grandma but I am not sure what that was. She did go visit her parents or father with supervision but she was right back with me afterward. I just wanted to find a way to keep her with me. I remember that I kept worrying that she didn't have many clothes and I wanted to take her shopping and get her all new ones.
When I woke up I had a sense that I needed to remember Cedar Ridge or maybe just "Cedar".
The dream was so darn vivid and I cannot shake it. I felt like she was a very loving child who just want to be held and loved. I have no idea of any of that will make any sense to anyone but I am hoping it will and that if it does, you will let me know!!
