Natalee Holloway - Meditations and Dreams through 2005

I mentioned in my first post about Natalee that I would go back and find more information and dates regarding my meditations.  Then I got slammed for not having stepped up 5 years ago.  I did, I tried repeatedly to contact someone.  That is when I learned that the authorities do not put much weight on "psychics".  And I quickly realized why..  I now realize that on a case like this they get literally hundreds, if not thousands of tips from psychics.  I also realize that there are some who don't seem to care who they hurt. 

That is sort of how this blog came about last year.  Its a place for me to place my thoughts, visions and dreams about missing children that is non-obtrusive.  Sometimes I make a contact if I feel there may be someone open to the information.  I have been found by families and law enforcement.  No one has to admit they are looking.. and if it helps then I'm doing my part.  I also invite others to share their information.  Its all about helping these children and their families.

That being said, and with the negative comment in mind, I am posting the journal entries I have found so far.  However, I have 5 years of journals to go through if I want to find everything that has come up since.

I do want to state for the record though, that my feelings about this case have evolved over the years.  I feel strongly that Natalee was taken.  I feel she was picked.  I feel that both Joran Van Der Slooth and his father were involved.  I feel they had been involved in the kidnapping/trafficking of young girls before Natalee. The Holloway's may not have found their daughter but I feel they may have saved others by their efforts and by putting the spot light on them.

In my original post I said that I was surprised about my visions about Natalee and wondered about why she was covered so heavily by the news vs. someone who hadn't created their circumstances, I didn't mean Natalee brought it on or even deserved what happened to her.  I guess I was thinking that it is naive to let these young people go to foreign countries and put themselves in dangerous situations, knowingly or not, and then be surprised when something bad happens. And I was thinking that a young child gets snatched off the street and gets NO coverage at all.. especially if they are boys. Why is that?  I meant no disrespect.

Anyway.. here is what I have found so far that I feel may be associated with Natalee....

06/13/05 -  I mentioned to Forrest last week that I had a feeling about that girl in Aruba.  I think there is no crime scene because she was not killed.   Perhaps kidnapped and being held for sexual purposes, either there or having been part of a ring.  That could also explain why no one will talk, but will admit being with her.  I just think she is still alive at this point.

06/19/05 – Yesterday I was looking at my mail and I pulled up a story about that girl in Aruba.  I feel as though she is still alive but those who have her are getting worried about the coverage. Those 3 boys were probably part of this but as pawns really.  She has been taken for a reason.  They were in it for the thrill or maybe just money but most likely both. They know there is no body to be found and fear the people who have her.  They feel their best chance of getting out of this is to just stay quiet and hope the law can’t prove anything.

06/23/05 – Today I was meditating and thinking about the Holloway girl in Aruba.  I saw a river like body of water, not too crooked, running between what I want to say are hilly islands.  I don’t know if it was an island or 2 hillsides but there is a house up on the hill and I think that is where she is.  I saw the name Donald.

06/29/05 – Meditation.. fish or dolphins, triangle, Bermuda?  Sailing, ear, Trista, it was sailing.. Martin, maybe St. Martin?  Islands.

06/30/09 – Today I was thinking about the Holloway girl again.  I see a river – what is a peninsula? High mountains on my left, perhaps opening out into the ocean, Bermuda.

07/01/05 – Clock, hands going between 9 and 10 o’clock.  Or more like from 10 back to 9.  The #9.  Man in a robe with a hobo stick,  Aruba.  Maybe 2 women.  Vicious teeth, dog, bondage.  Man or older boy climbing over bed, out of, branch.  That Van Der Sloot boy and a contact of some kind.

07/02/05 – Meditation.. butterfly, bird, rug.  A bird with a white head, sorta like a seagull but pointy beak.  A woman with a do.. puffy  hair, dressed in white shirt, slim straight knee length skirt.  50ish or maybe 60ish. 

Yesterday the clock brought me to the time zones.. back and forth instead of around the clock.  I looked it up and Aruba is exactly one hour behind Bermuda.  Thinking about this and trying to find pictures.  The name briarcliff – a college or school in NY is what I found.  Also a software company in NY I believe.  The pictures of Bermuda more closely resemble my vision of the hilly area where I can see the white house.

My visions of the man with the robe and the hobo stick could represent, at least to me, a cross between the Fool and the Hermit which takes me back to the rocky hills.  Ready to take a leap off a cliff.  The Hermit has a star trapped in his lantern, the girl?

07/03/05 – Meditation.. her being rolled up in something like fabric or packing material, cat.  Being guarded by dogs.  Blue and grey.  Briarcliff again.  Pink (last) Stables or long row of warehouses but it feels like stables?? The rolling up feels like it was at the start.  I still sense her being alive.

I was asking for signs yesterday that I should let someone know about this and I ended up seeing a house, high on a hill.  It resembled the picture of the way the house is situated in my dream.  Also, on the way back, a little hole in the wall place called Cliff Rock Inn, lounge, something like that.  That and my reading tells me its time to make a decision on whether to take action on this or not.  Its time to take a chance.

I did a reading and I asked for guidance. The Chariot Rx, 10 of Cups Rx, the 7 of Cups popped out while I was shuffling.   I thought if the Fool or the Hermit showed up then I would know for sure.  At that moment the Hermit popped out and as I continued the Knight of Wands fell out..

Take some action.  The 7 of Cups – make a decision to take some action of this matter.  I think the Chariot Rx and the 10 of Cups Rx represents that I need to give in to my visions and the will of God and my guides and tell them what I know.  The 10 of Cups Rx represents the family in turmoil.

07/04/05 – Rose, flute? Spade and that bird again.  A triangle, the triangle is going through the bird or is the bird going through the triangle? Could the bird be a boat and the triangle be going to Bermuda? Find out the name of that bird…

I sent an email yesterday.  Who knows if anyone will take this seriously…

My cards today are the Magician Rx, the Knight of Cups and right after the 4 of Pentacles popped out and then the 8 of Wands.  First I think this reading is about the person who took Natalee because she was on my mind.  Power and money abused.. He wanted her and he felt entitled to take her.  He is keeping her for himself.  The 8 of Wands shows a boat going furiously across the water, the front of the boat is a bird with a pointed beak and there are dolphins jumping out of the water.  There are sail and what looks like an eye painted on the front of the boat.  This was part of my vision.. I need to find out what that symbol is.  Sun symbol on the sails and 8 lighted wands.

I decided to do a full reading on Natalee and the situation.  Basically it said that I’ve done the right thing.  The reading indicates that my feelings have some factual information.  The outcome will be that someone will take notice of some of the information and it will make sense.  It will help.  If that happens she will be found.

07/05/05 – The world in the palm of my hand.  A clock, either 3 o’clock or 4’oclock, midday I think. 9^th, Kitchen window, flowers and curtains.  A man, medium brown hair, medium build, shoulder length hair, almost. A white sandy beach.  A strong picture of a gull or white headed bird.  My guides are showing me an image of a bird’s eye view and an eagle in flight.

07/07/05 – Meditation.. branches outside of a window.  A canon or maybe a gun?? Egypt and antiques.  War or battle.  The birds again, a lot of birds.  I am still seeing sea birds.  A picture. She is alive.  The picture is to the side.  I can’t really see it, perhaps turned a little.  It may be a sunset and a rocky beach.  Perhaps there is a collector involved.  I was looking for a sign to show me I was going in the right direction.

07/16/05 – A raven opening a small door, like on a letter box.  A bird flying, then it had a long neck like a pelican, flamingo or stork.  A man in a suit clinching his upturned fists.  Is Natalee alive? Yes.

Last night I had a dream about cages of hamsters.  I dreamed that I had forgotten about them.  I don’t think any of them were dead but were very close to it.  I used to have dreams like this a lot.  I wonder if it means forgetting to tend to major details, serious issues.  Dying from neglect.. I found them just in time.  Some things cannot be forgotten or neglected without serious consequences.

07/19/05 – Crescent moon, she will be found on a crescent moon.  Still alive I think?? A little man running atop buffalos.  An Indian?  It seemed like an old drawing on a cave wall.  A monkey and a fox walking down a rocky hill, row houses.  Natalee.

07/20/05 – Immediately I see a bridge covering? I’m not sure.  Its seems like a smaller parcel.  The world, a map turning around and stopping, going clockwise like she did move or someone traveled, continents.  Cruz? Santa Cruz, Mexico?? And a D.  A man with a pointed nose and dark hair.  Maybe some bit of facial hair. 

A handle or tool from a socket wrench set?? 2 tools.

 I found a picture of a gorge similar in nature to the rocky hills and water.

07/21/05 – A beach, a boat, small.. A place in the water where a big rock is standing up out of the water.   A duck.

07/25/05 – Water, trees.. like the Amazon.  Maybe a Florida swamp?  Boat or canoe, empty.  May have a secret compartment or something, someone in it.  The 25^th.

08/03/05 – Camera, carrot nose, sunglasses, like a snow man.. Bird, but changing… eagle, vulture, duck or something with a hat and glasses.  Actually I think that was first after snowman.  Hawk, then hawk catches rabbit and the rabbit is scared.

08/05/05 – I wanted to know about Natalee and I keep seeing the same place.  Rocky hills, water, a house.  Also a sword and a surf board??

08/10/05 – Natalee popped into my head during my prayers.  Then in my meditation I saw her smiling and talking.  A wall appeared and then turned textured. Maybe like a cave or something, I don’t know.  There was a girl with something around her head, like a dew rag and then a cap, maybe a red cap.  And now a girl with a braid wearing that cap.  She appeared alive, talking and then the thought of castles again.  There was a place, seemed swimming pool, blue, open walkway and deep entrances.  Children coming out to talk to her.  Maybe desert, I don’t know.. a sandy beach.

08/16/05 – A bridge over water in the woods,  the woods over water…  Kinda like the woods I saw yesterday only it seems like fall, damp and dreary.  Then Natalee again.  A small bear and another smaller animal, bug or fish.  The bear was trying to catch it and he did, and he ate it.  A skunk walked by, then water falls.  An island.  Looking down on it from a birds eye view, sorta long like pictures of Aruba.  Is she now dead?  I don’t know..

08/30/05 – Not much, distracted.  Natalee came to mind in a loud “she is stll alive”.  I don’t know.

09/07/05 – Meditation – a dark sky, looking up through the trees.  Then a bird or plane?? I didn’t want to see crashes.  I asked about Natalee.  I saw a skillet of food, like a mix of something and it feels like she may still be alive.

09/09/05 – Meditation only brought thoughts of Natalie again.  I dreamed last night that I was still telling people that she is alive.. I still see that.

09/27/05 – Meditation brought a lot of vivid  pictures but most I don’t know .  A flash like looking though a port hole, a room like an attic with lots of stuff.  Someone was in there, trapped I think.  Thoughts of Natalee again, she may still be alive.  I had dreams about Trista and Zach and the baby.  I was carrying the baby because she couldn’t but came to regret it.  When I realized it was not Zach’s, which also meant the baby was not my grandchild.  Back to it.. I saw faces and sadness that I feel I have now lost – I saw a butterfly develop and grow wings and a distinctive #5.  Year 5??  5 what???

10/06/05 – Meditation today brought vivid pictures.  Starts as a glimpse of a partial face in what appears to be an oval or round mirror.  Door, a dark hall.  There is a dark figure standing.  A man I think because of the size and then the mirror again. Or maybe it becomes a window but the figure is in and out of it.  maybe 2 crabs floating out of my vision then I can see the figure standing on a porch or balcony looking out over it.  There are a lot of trees.  That is what I can see in the background, trees and I or he seems to be high up.  Then the #67 and finally an airplane.  Always I see planes??? Are these  planes symbols of something? I was thinking about Natalee this morning and I try to keep in mind that it usually brings visions but I never really know if it is related.

10/19/05 – Meditation seemed more vivid today, starting with an image that seemed to indicate evil.  A scary goat like horned figure and a hand up against glass or the air, but like HELP.  Palm out, fingers up.  A castle or estate with a large building.  At first it seemed like the Washington Monument but then it turned around the scene and it showed the house on the cliff again, looking out over the ocean.  A surf board sticking up and then it turned into a dolphin shape.  The monument then turned to a tower looking object, or perhaps a light house.  Am I looking at Natalee again?

12/16/05 – Meditation was good I think.  I sat down by the pond and a young buck came to drink beside me.  I saw, heard or sensed  a frog and the thought that a frog knows.  I saw a car flash by like a VW bug but not?? I don’t know but it was blue.  I saw the letters P and O.  I thought post.  An embryo, Ann Marie.  A man’s khaki slacks and brown shoes then dark, maybe blue pants and more like boots, perhaps lighter shoes.  A square shaped light and I think something round and bright in the middle.  Like a flash??

12/19/05 – Meditation.. I saw my bear walking along side of me to the pond.  And I saw an elephant.  As I sat there I saw some waves in the air and it reminded me of radio waves.  I would hear some news on the radio.  There was a small, heart shaped pendant with some designs in it and I think it was hanging on a key chain or hanging like that silver, and a bath tub.  Some dolls falling.

12/20/05 –Meditation.. I immediately saw a pink heart, love.  As I was meditating I first saw the gorge I used to see around Natalee Holloway and I heard “yes it is” when I wondered about her.  I saw a speed boat and I also heard that she is not safe anymore.  I heard a little girl crying for her mommy.  I saw plainly the #6.